Well this is an excerpt from wat i wrote long back!!!

"The days are long
The nights even longer
And my heart just can’t speak.
There’s a lot to do;
A lot more to speak…
But words don’t fall,
And I get weak.

And I want to forget
That pain does exist.
And I want to suppress
The tears draining me.

And I want to delete
The anguish within
And I want to BELIEVE
That heaven is smiling upon me…
And I want to believe
That You are there with me.”

It is said that we metamorphise wid time... dat everything dat happens in our life, every moment and every activity has a relation, it has a significance, it has a meaning.

Wat I m writing today, wat I m feeling today is all related to moments in past and has a significance in future.
Thoughts are rushing in my mind and I really dont know how to organise them and type them at this moment. I ve started blog writing all of a sudden again. Most of the things I do or rather somewher my bosom earnestly wants to do happen in a second, without a second thought... impulse at times gives a vent to my long hidden thoughts or dreams.

I sometimes fail to understand myself and the reason for being wat I m. I m searching for a purpose of my life... The purpose of what I am and why I am... My short term and long term goals seem to be faded in the agony of past. Turbulence and deception has left me awestuck!!!!

But yes... i have a purpose... to vent away my long hidden feelings... so dat I can understand myself better... So that I can feel lighter... and find light in my own heart. o my Lord... all my writings are directly or indirectly addressed to you as usual.... So I request Your earnest grace uopn me!!!

Love Ya

Eagle!!

Addiction!!!

Well... This is not my first blog. I ve already written two blogs in a span of last one year and deleted them. Perhaps, because of my own inhibitions and fears.
But yes, with my last blog... I' ve got addicted to blog writing. So, no matter how hard I tried to restrict myself from writing one, I couldnot stop myself.
Something about me... I m a girl of 21.. last year of college... full of hopes and inhibitions... full of vibrance and trying to be sensible and mature.
4 years of college has been a long span for me. crying, laughing, emotional traumas, deception in name of professionalism... and naming deception worldliness later... growing up... realisation of facts... losing track.. and then trying to get back to one... getting proposals... tomboyishness... then realisation to be a female... hating love... ... adapting... spirituality...
It has been a combo ride of all in one.
There s lot which is going to pop out on this electronic media... but most of them I believe will be moments.. moments lived and expressed... captured in words... to be reflected someday later in future.

Lets see how far these latent emotions find their vent out!!!